i am drowning again. i need help, but i don't know how to ask for it and what to ask help for. i felt that i am barely breathing in water dangerously close to my nose. i sleep late at 3 to 4 am, and wake up at 8am-enough for me to scramble to get to work. work does not help either, there are so many project fronts that i am with right now that not a minute can be wasted. i work my typical eight hours, but after than there's always a half or an hour and a half meetings thereafter.

honestly, i want to call in sick so i can rest a little more.

i am guessing that because of the amount of overwhelming thoughts that i'm letting my mind go through is causing all these brain fades i am going through. i appear to be really slow with the time perception that i feel like i am doing my best and yet my body lags behind me. my eyes are heavy from all the infiltrations and informations that i am acquiring everyday. i still read about photography techniques when i have a little bit of time, but because of my current schedule, it is becoming much much harder--not to mention the difficulty of my new class. i reviewed the class schedule and it is not pretty. looks like the class i am on right now is barely half of what i'm going on next. photography degree will have to wait awhile.

i am sick and tired of myself.

Labels: random_musings

Posted by Ron Valiente