i recently married bohomoho last july 7, 2007 at malaga cove in rancho palos verdes. i am proudly wearing a wedding band. the angelicfall is my name that signifies the love that i have with bohomoho i met an angel and i fall, the angelicfall. random musings of the angelicfall, a married guy.
she was beet red.
bwahahaha what a trip!!!!
the door opened, i always ignore this, cause it happens, like so many times in a day (for those that didn't know, i sit by the door).
- HIC -
I turned around to see Jeanette, who just had a huge hiccup.
she was beet red when i looked at her.
i was like, "are you ok?"
she said with a giggle, "yeah... ahihihi" and walked away.
lol. i supposed she was sooooooo embarassed. ahahahahahahahhaah
you know the usual shit that we go through everyday? it's like, why would i post something that has been repeating all these time?
vaguely monotonous i would say. i did something last weekend though, that is quite unusual. i worked. very unusual indeed, but the work that i did, is very usual. you know the usual blah blah that people go through everyday.
sunday was a bit different from saturday, i actually ate with tep. we ate at chili's, and i had my usual country fried steak. after the good times, i went home and did my usual evening routine.
Monday... blahh. same old shit. never got to talk to any of my coworkers, testing is doing ok... but still is boring.
I left work at around 4.15pm, and headed straight to school after making a stop at a local washington mutual. it was a very slow drive... the usual. i got to the school's parking lot, and waited for a good spot (unusual, since i always park on where there is available parking). i stayed in my car for a good fifteen minutes to rest and cool down since it was a freaking 96 fahrenheit. I went to psyc class. i actually enjoy going to that class because of the sense of humour the atheist professor has. she always have a disclaimer everytime we touch on religion, saying that, "i respect your religion, i have my own viewpoints, and now, the sex joke of the day!" and she started telling the story of the two kids with feathers. haha. i really find that funny.
we went on discussing about pseudoscience, and it's nothing new to me really. what made it strange was that, earlier today, kevin and bean was talking about chance and bad luck, which we also did touched based on last night.
after class, i went to tep's place and got there around ten before seven. i gave her a ring and went to sleep.
"swit? swit?"
i look up, it was her! i was sleeping like an oil would in the freezer! ahhh the joy of seeing my beloved tep. only then i realized that my shirt was so wet from the sweat i poured due to the heat.
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before i slept last night, i was making sure that my checking account was balanced and made sure that i am ready to mail the checks on specific days of these weeks. i was hurrying up since i am really sleepy, until i suddenly fell down by the side of my brother's accord. grimacing in pain, i cussed all the foul words that i know (fuck, litse, kapa, yawa, piste, tangina, shit, damn, motherfucker... etc.). I investigated what happened, somebody (i suspected it was john or joey, after all, they really like to beautify the fishpond) left huge rocks there (the one i hit was about 12 inches high, and weighs about 60lbs). i limped to my car, still in pain, cannot concentrate on what i was there for... which i forgot.
after 45 mins of staring at some postcards in postsecret, i remembered what i was looking for in my car... after almost completely emptying my car's glove compartment. i was looking for my allstate bill (i'm not worried, since all i need is actually just an excuse for mailing it instead of paying online. i'm sending my payment online tomorrow night. HA!).
i need to get a parking permit. a dollar a day is quite expensive ($4 per week or $72 for the entire 18 week semester). mahala oi!!!!!
Jesus Christ!!!!
I just found out that I paid 0.69¢ per minute international rate per minute when i was with t-mobile.
Cingular is offering for 0.17¢ per minute. hehe. i'll have it activated!
i think i have compromised my own health. Yesterday, on my way home, i was feeling the buzz of my head, having a really painful head ache and drowsiness. I exited off Alondra Blvd, and on the off ramp, i fell asleep for a few seconds. When I snapped out of it, i was going 70mph, I struggled to brake. As the curve started to come around, I turned the wheel and switched to lower gear (forcing my engine for an engine brake, since my car is a front engine). Due to my speed, i went a little understeer, and made my wheels screech.
what if I accidentally forced my brakes? =( i surely would have just went out of bounds from the ramp, and could possibly hit something.
waaaa
Is this real? or Hoax?
sounds too good to be true!
The following was written by INTEL General Manager Robin Martin about the Philippines:
Filipinos (including the press, business people and myself) tend to dwell too much on the negative side, and this affects the perception of foreigners, even the ones who have lived here for a while. The negative perception of the Philippines is way disproportionate to reality when compared to countries like Columbia, Egypt, Middle East, Africa, etc.
Let us all help our country by balancing the negative with the positive especially when we talk to foreigners, whether based here or abroad.
Looking back and comparing the Philippines today and 1995 (the year I came back), I was struck by how much our country has progressed physically.
Consider the following:
1. The great telecom infrastructure that we have now did not exist in 1995. 1995 was the year the telecom industry was deregulated. Since then billions of dollars have been invested in both fixed line and cellular networks producing a system with over 5,000 kms of fiber optic backbone at a world competitive cost. From a fixed line capacity of about 900,000 in 1995 we now have over 7 million. Cellular phones practically did not exist in 1995; now we have over 11 million line capacity.
2. The MRT, many of the EDSA flyovers (including the Ayala Avenue flyover), the SKYWAY, Rockwell and Glorietta 4, the Fort, NAIA terminal 2 and most of the new skyscrapers were not yet built in 1995.
3. If you drive to the provinces, you will notice that national roads are now of good quality (international quality asphalt roads). I just went to Iba, Zambales last week and I was impressed that even a not so frequently traveled road was of very good quality.
4. Philippine exports have increased by 600% over the past eight years. There are many, many more examples of progress over the last eight years. Philippine mangoes are now exported to the US and Europe.
Additional tidbits to make our people prouder:
1. INTEL has been in the Philippines for 28 years. The Philippines plant is where Intel's most advanced products are launched, including the Pentium IV. By the end of 2002, Philippine operations are expected to be
Intel's biggest assembly and testing operations worldwide.
2. TEXAS INSTRUMENTS has been operating in Baguio for over 20 years. The Baguio plant is the largest producer of DSP chips in the world. DSP chips are the brains behind cellphones. TI's Baguio plant produces the chip
that powers 100% of all NOKIA cellphones and 80% of Erickson cellphones in the world.
3. TOSHIBA laptops are produced in Santa Rosa, Laguna.
4. If you drive a BENZ, BMW, or a VOLVO, there is a good chance that the ABS system in your car was made in the Philippines.
5. TREND-MICRO, makers of one of the top anti virus software PC-Cillin (I may have mispelled this) develops its "cures" for viruses right here in Eastwood Libis, Quezon City. When a virus breaks in any computer system in the world, they try to find a solution within 45 minutes of finding the virus.
6. By the end of this year, it is expected that a majority of the top ten U.S. Call Center firms in the U.S. will have set up operations in the Philippines. This is one area in which I believe we are the best in
the world in terms of value for money.
7. America Online (AOL) has 1,000 people in Clark answering 90% of AOL's global e-mail inquiries.
8. PROCTOR & GAMBLE has over 400 people right here in Makati (average age 23 years) doing back-up office work to their Asian operations including finance, accounting, Human Resources and payments processing.
9. Among many other things it does for its regional operations network in the Asia-Pacific region here in Manila, CITIBANK also does its global ATM programming locally.
10. This is the first year ever that the Philippines will be exporting cars in quantity courtesy of FORD Philippines.
Next time you travel abroad and meet business associates tell them the good news. A big part of our problem is perception and one of the biggest battles can be won simply by believing and by making others believe.
This message is shared by good citizens of the Philippines who persevere to hope and work for our country.
my life revolve around two lost
because i am controlled by it.
without two lost, i am not a man.
not that i have to have it,
but i produce it.
Walking, waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping an' hating
Things that can't bare
Did ya think it's cool to walk right up
To take my life and fuck it up
Well did you
Well did you?
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise (by surprise)
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
Walking, waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping an' hating
Things that I can't bare
Did you think it's cool to walk right up
To take my life and fuck it up
Well did you
I HATE YOU!
I slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How to get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I could't kill you
I've slept so long without you
i hate myself for not waking up always. no matter what time i sleep. no matter the time i set my three alarms (one cellphone, one a regular alarm clock, and one my pc... which is set to alarm four times-one with a specific mp3 at 6am, the alarm's normal ring at 4.30, another mp3 at 5am, another mp3 at 5.30.
fuck me.
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Click the link above, and try to beat me.
so far it's level 16.
i have never been more excited to get back to school.
to find out i have to re-register as a new student.
to find out that i can't get the semi-independent class i want.
to find out i cant go to the other class.
boy was my brain fried this afternoon.
i took the semi-independent class for one reason, so i will not get bored.
on the second exam, i flunked it.
it was about functions from algebra, and to hell would i remember those.
i dropped that class, and told myself that this is way too fast and nutty for me.
i went to the next class, the trig with lecture.
boy was it boring.
aside from the fried brains that i had from studying until 1am, and the ransacking of my thoughts when i took the exam earlier, the class i transferred to was very boring.
it was slow.
so i'm caught in between, but i'll settle for the slow class anyway.
i ended up not getting the speech classes.
funny thing that papa and mama did tuesday:
they showed me a six page document, read the highlighted ones are smokers problems.
i might be going to inland invasion! woohoo! i talked to jack earlier today, and he said he's going to try and get me a pair of tickets. who's coming with me?
line up:
-beck
-bloc party
-bravery
-cake
-garbage
-jet
-live
-madness
-oasis
-311
-the arcade fire
-weezer.
boy was it so fun yesterday.
i came in at work at around 730am, i juggled work and pastime, writing my inner most thoughts and all that shit while waiting for reports to complete. when the reports got through, i proceeded processing and preparing it to a batch style.
i took my break at around 10:14am. I came back and saw the digital clock (a queing process that we have in place have a clock and is maintained by a computer), was showing 10:17am.
i looked at my cellphone and saw that it was 10:30am. somebody told me our systems were fucked up. the entire company was down to a halt after the virus zotob.e infected the network in less than an hour. at that time, nobody knew what it was. i didn't have anything to do without a computer, so i decided to clean my desk, old reports were sent to archiving, the audits that are in my mailbox were logged, and by lunch time, i'm out of things to do.
i took my lunch.
when i came back, my supervisor called the team in for a quick meeting. by 2PM, we were just running around in circles trying to find something to do.
we were sent home.
i got to school pretty early yesterday at around 330pm. didn't really have anything to do, i decided to eat an early dinner since i was starving. i took my time eating the dinner (which, btw, is not at all good japanese food, i would much rather eat at that japanese place in alondra/bloomfield.) at about 4:15pm, i messed around my journal, write stupid stuff, just to kill time.
i saw ysa and christina, with a friend. not really doing anything, i hanged out with them. i was introduced to their friend teresa. we talked about nothing. i don't even know why all my conversation attempts failed. but oh well. they left at around 4:45pm and i'm stuck with again, nothing to do.
i walked around trying to find something interesting to do. i threw away my diet pepsi, which taste like it's been on air for like weeks (if it was days, it would have at least tasted sweet, but no.) i stayed in the cai labs. i didn't have an account yet and i'm too lazy to have one set-up (for now), i went ahead and used the common login in the macintoshes.
i posted something yesterday, and it looks very similar to this. the funny thing was that, i was on the brink of sleeping when i wrote that. i tried reading it earlier, but a lot of it didn't even made sense. (I actually caught myself writing about a part of my dream in continuation to what i have already written about my day.) so, pretty funky stuff right there.
i fell asleep in the lab's computer chair for two mins. so i decided to have fun. i googled (new term for searching with google? =P) sex survey. i picked one and answered it. very interesting stuff i would say, how long is your penis, what age was your first time, your bra size (if your a girl), how the first time happened (ie: love him/her so much, did it because he/she let me, etc), did you like your first time, length of time before second time, how long did you have to wait for sex with the relationship that you have (__ days/ __ months / __ years/ we had sex before the relationship), how many times? __ per day __ per week, etc. do you like being given oral sex, do you like giving oral sex? and pretty interesting statistics too, 57% of men said the size of the boobs doesn't matter and 58% of women said the penis size matters. very disturbing fact there. another disturbing thing was that the number of partners, the avg for men is 14, women is 24? *shocked* grabe. overs. i don't believe these statistics... on the other hand, it could be true, would it?
anyway, 5:30pm came, and i saw people lining up for the semi-independent room. we were brought to the school cafeteria for the orientation and was given a basic math proficiency test (i'll be pissed off it they gave me trig questions, since i took the class for that reason.).
class completed at around 7pm. as i have indicated it in my six week schedule, i am heading over to papa's office. i spent about 2 hours in papa's office. i was able to get all the computers connected (finally!) to the printer, unless they come up with another problem that would need me to be in the office.
i got home and was feeling dizzy. i ate something at the dining table whilst talking to rosalynne. i asked rosalynne if i would be getting money from the work she asked me to do. she issued me a check as payment for the work. I stayed in front of my pc doing nothing. was hoping to tell twit about my day, but she was busy. she called to say goodnight.
this morning was funky too. i woke up by my alarm, i stood up, turned off my cellphone alarm, the alarm clock and the alarm clock at my pc. i sat down in front of my pc and my phone rang. it was my twit's wake up call. after the call i was coughing like hell. i made coffee, then proceeded to sip it while going around the net. i grabbed my towel and went to take a shower, and i checked my email while putting on lotion. then the deodorant, then the clothes, then the shoes. i left my room, and went to my car and wiped the windshield so i can see better. i got to work at around 6.30am. nice, i have overtime! i went on with my daily routines pretty early. i went to class after work, and the teacher was marvelous! she gave me the add card so i can enrol. i went and enrolled the class and also bought the books for that class, psychology, and for my other class math. i left school and was pretty much smooching twit with a lot of kisses.
then i wake up. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!
i looked at the watch, 7:05AM. Fuck! i couldn't figure out where my dream started, how i fell asleep and how i ended up being back in the bed since i actually have to stand up to turn off my pc's alarm. i checked my phone, i actually DID talked to twit. fuck fuck fuck was all i can say. i think i passed out from the coughing... something was in my throat.
i ran to take a shower. hurriedly put on lotion, deo and clothes. then i accidentally hit an old cup of coffee and it spilled on my rear end. i ended up having to change again.
i got a call from twit, she has already arrived at work and was pissed that at me for what happened. i'm actually pissed at myself for having a very realistic dream!
i got to work close to 8.30am. i will have undertime today... like monday.
oh god.
that math class is a bitch.
an exam today... a take home exam due this friday... and another exam due on wednesday. life is getting interestingly scary.
i'm in cerritos college computer/learning labs right now.
i ranted a lot of thoughts this morning while i was waiting for my reports to complete running. these thoughts that i wrote are gone forever, i can only attempt to re-write those, but it will never be the same.
after coming from break at around 1019am, i realized that all my work was gone. not that bad, since i've only did so much in the two and a half hours i was there... then i remembered my journal entry, i was pissed for not saving it, but at the same time, relieved that it was not saved. i was pissed off because i was not able to post it here, i was relieved since i didn't need to worry about leaving tracks off on my computer.
our network was fucked beyond description.
you basically only have one minute before it restarts itself. so we couldn't do shit with our computers. i just spent an hour arranging my desk, organizing it in a way a bored man would do. i didn't had any meetings, which is a good thing, but i was fucked up bored.
i took my half hour lunch talking to bong and vickie, we had all kinds of theories on what hit us, but oh well.
i went back from lunch, and at around 2pm, i heard from bong that i.t. has figured out what happened. and will implement a patch to all the computers, one by one.
that's a lost in revenue right there.
i was sent home at around 2.30pm, and was told that it will not be charged to vacation pto, but will paid still.
i'm so sleepy right now...
last night was funny.
as soon as i hanged up the phone with twit, i ran to the living room to attempt to go to the bathroom.
kuya joey was taking a shower, so i decided to watch tv while i slept. until john woke me up, asking me if we can invite teray on a party this saturday.
i looked at the watch, i was sleeping there for the last two hours.
i wonder what it would be like had i decided to leave la fitness parking lot right away?
would i be in colorado right now working for a company that will ultimately disappear anyway.
Natalia: hi tito ronron
Natalia: how are you today
Natalia: how is mama
Natalia has signed out. (08/16/05 00:36)
Ron Val: hi natalie!
Ron Val: I'm doing great! life has been wonderful to me!
Ron Val: Mama is doing great.
Ron Val: How are you?
Ron Val: How's mommy?
i thought that i would feel a lot better if i find the greatest challenge and struggle in my life. as time came along, i realized that i myself is the greatest challenge i face.
I'm bored. *
top three things
. memorable dates
a. july 7, 2003
b. mar 1, 2003
c. my first time =P
. movie titles
a. sideways!!!
b. the crow
c. 9 song!
. websites i first visit at work
a. bohomoho.blogspot.com
b. eportfolio
c. www.statcounter.com
. websites i first visit everywhere else
a. mail.yahoo.com
b. bohomoho.blogspot.com
c. www.statcounter.com
. food i drool over with
a. country fried steak
b. tambok nga...
c. sunflower seeds. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
. things i'd buy in a store
a. batteries
b. water
c. yosi
. mobile phones
a. lg-f900
b. 3210
c. 5210
. songs i enjoy
a. great heights - postal service
b. idiot boyfriend - jimmy flallon
c. all these things that i've done - the killers
. things i can't leave home without
a. my sunglasses
b. wallet
c. my keys
. persons i can't live without
a. tootise
b. siblings
c. parents din ako. wooohooo
. countries i'd Like to visit/live in
a. old town colorado, co, US
b. japan
c. great britain
. chocolates
a. anything black
b. dark truffles
c. chocolates n creme
. things i wish i can do
a. fly
b. play guitar
c. play drums
another one.
from bebe's site.
Five Things You May Not Know About My Time in School
* i thought i was invisible, until the professor called home telling my aunt that i have been not showing up at school for months.
* AA was my hang out... in front of it was Dot.Com...
* i wrote atheism paper on a catholic school
* at one point, got a 99% in t.h.e/computer... and at the same time getting a 65% in p.e.
* me and my friends drank tanduay at the beach after ditching school.
Five Things You May Not Know About the Job/s I Have (or Had)
* I had worked in an office where I can sleep during the afternoon.
* i can multi-task... using four computers at one time, putting our printers to overdrive.
* i used to work for an office supply company, just in front of my high school... i quitted three days after.
* i was my aunt's assistant when i was 12 in the operating room when she's administering anaesthesia (sp pls?) (i have seen pekpek, i have seen c-section, i have seen brain, traumatic? no. boring? hell yes.)
* during the 1994 elections, i worked the night shift in my brother's printing press... he manages from 9AM through 1AM, i manage the rest. I am the layouts guy from 8PM through 7AM. I was mostly drunk.
Five Things You May Not Know About My Online Life:
* i am a chat addict.
* i used to be addicted so much with forums (5 online forums, more than 20,000 posts in a span of 7 months).
* i check my email every hour.
* i have the OCD of changing la-outs of my page... i have to finish it in one sitting (even if it takes 8 hours).
*
Five Things You May Not Know About Where I Live:
* the plumbing is shit.
* my room is hotter than hell
* i live with my parents, and the rest of the family.
* i can hear the mta's train's horns from where i live
* my next door neighbor is a rocker... drums, guitars and singing.
Five Things You May Not Know About Where I used Live: (malaybalay)
* i never had a room on my own
* if some morons try to burn just a single pine tree in the forest near our backyard, then it will burn the entire forest... sorrounding the city
* We have no plans of remodeling our home, we would definitely restore it.
* our house is a block away from the local cemetary
* dogs cry out around 9pm... and again around 2am.
Five Things You May Not Know About Where I used Live: (bulua, cagayan de oro)
* the house design was taken right off from a catalog, redesigned to accomodate the size of the house (which is, a lot smaller than that of the catalog), it has also been modified to "cheat" on having to put real bricks on the roof.
* the pond in the front was designed by kuya joey and john, and somewhat copied from a catalog.
* we have several balete trees
* it has a small sari sari store
* the furniture was made by my uncle
Five Things You May Not Know About Where I used Live: (pinikitan, cagayan de oro)
* we live next to a hospital
* the house was 1970s design... very huge and spacious. (standard ceiling is about 10 ft, it was 12-14 ft on the bedrooms, the rest is about 20-25ft)
* the son of the owner's compound has a child with their maid.
* we live right next to a water tank, about 14 ft diameter, and 9ft high... above the ground for 12 feet.
* there's an old vw parked in the garage, my brother and i has been jumping from it.
Five Things You May Not Know About Where I used Live: (pasay)
* we are very close to makati
*within the block radius... u can go to any store and ask the following last names: j, h, f, etc. and those are my cousins to some extent.
* you have to duck, in order for you to go to the house (my cousin's house in the front added more space in his second floor room by using the alley)
* you have to be careful with taking a shower with a tabo, or else, you are going to hit the ceiling... and thus if it gets wet, it may crash on u (it's made of cardboard boxes thankfully)
* our house is elevated by two feet, compared to the neighbors at 4 inches. when it's rainy season, we're ok.
Five Things You May Not Know About My Home Life:
* i have two bright lights in my room, i only used my three dim ones.
* my room is the server room for our home network
* of my 168 hour week, you can find me home about 55 hours of the week at most.
* we have three tv's at home... all have cable... and 7 people at home... i am the only one who doesn't watch tv at all... i would stay in the living room to read.
* i am the handyman at home... even though i'm absent from home most of the time.
Five Things You May Not Know that I Desperately Want:
* my own house. =(
* a life on my own.
* learn the drums and guitar
*
*
Five Embarrassing Fannish Admissions I Have That You May Not Know:
* i'm nuts about computers.
* i gave my pe at 65... at the same time getting a 99 on my computer class
* i drive for hours to get some "air" or "space" for myself.
*
*
Five Things You May Not Know About What I Do in a Typical Day:
* audits, audits, audits.
* i always need an hour to prepare (shower and dress up)
* drive for hours to get to work... and drive hours to get home.
*
i hate this coworker, she doesn't care if her skirt is up, she sits on the floor even when she's wearing a skirt, she doesn't sit like a girl, even with a skirt. come to think of it, i don't think she really cares cause she's not good looking. or maybe she's asking for more attention? ewww.
hooorraaaahhh
hooorraaaahhh
here i come to save the day...
the mighty geek is here to stay!
hooorraaaahhh
hooorraaaahhh
step a notch,
speed a bump,
act crazy and here we go!
hooorraaaahhh
hooorraaaahhh
here i come to save the day!!
the mighty geek is here to stay!!!
hooorraaaahhh
hooorraaaahhh
with flying silk socks
and moronic melodies,
here we go again!
hooorraaaahhh
hooorraaaahhh
here i come to save the day!
the mighty....
the mighty....
THE MIGHTY GEEK!
uhh yeah, it's a cross between mighty mouse theme song and gibberish bullshit. i don't even know how to sing it.
what is wrong with me,
i've been having nightmares that i hanged myself.
i wake up with gallons of sweat pouring out of my pores,
i admit, i am scared of dying, and i am scared even more of hurting the
people i love if ever i would.
i am in the absentminded state of delusionary tendencies.
my head is floating in the cloud of fantasy...
in bed...
cuddling...
hugging...
enjoying the comfort of the embrace...
and the warm love that it provided...
kissing...
i can't squat down anymore...
i would feel that my stomach is so tight, that even when i ate so little this lunch, i can feel myself wanting to throw up.
crap.
crap. crap.
i felt my legs have gained and extra inch or two around... i felt that the space between my legs is becoming cramp... i felt my balls always hitting my lges.
very good fucking timing, just when i wanted to sleep so fucking bad, the DSL fucks up. and what timing my ocd would kick in?
i hateeeeeeeeee myself for this.
You know it's a trip...
just recently, i played my old jimi hendrix songs, eric clapton as well... and the ramones. old school!!!!
i just found out something, and it really pisses me off. the company i used to work with, actually do have medical insurance with a certain company. guess what the so called "vice president" doesn't have medical insurance, and i know he and his wife are looking for medical insurance. maybe they have their own reasons, maybe it's not part of a package deal... however, i have worked in an insurance company, and the cost effective way companies used to deal with this is to not announce it to the employees.
we started out our weekend with watching the wedding crashers. i think that was the movie we watched... lol.
anyway, after movie, we went to my folk's place to play poker. we finished playing at around 3am, john being the obvious winner.
yesterday, we went to play a round of mini golf, we ate pizza at malibu castle in redondo beach. after some playing around, we decided on what to do after.
me, tep, john and kristine went to hollywood video to grab a dvd. john and kristine went ahead and picked up some alcohol.
we went home and watched the dvd while eating.
this morning, after a funny encounter, we headed off to the bukidnon picnic in the park. eventually getting bored, we decided to invite people for poker. mark and teresa joined us at home.
blame it on us. haha
the one thing that have helped me ease myself out is that one book by Richard Carlson, phd. I know i've mentioned this book before, but i have continued reading it the past week. yeah yeah, it takes me forever to read those, but everytime i poop, i read two or three parts. (these parts are interestingly very small).
it's not all about what's in the book that have affected me, but in the way it was written. it's written on a more personal aspect (as i see it anyway), that makes you feel good about the words that are written. it speaks of the negativity in which we accomodate ourselves, and suggestions on how to take these "small stuff" into something we won't care anymore. in short, i think the book is telling us to be more positive... and thus this relaxes us more.
not everything in the book applies to me, that is very true, but those that do apply, have helped save my ass for the longest time.
in the past i have the innate ability to ask for something in return when i do favors, now, i try with everything i got not to ask or even expect.
soooooooo....
if i eat... it doesn't mean u have to give a bj. lol.
kidding aside, i have come into terms with myself just recently. i have put aside my more internal inhibitions, and just push with it. i am happy where i am, and will work to have a better future for a family i seek to have. to sum it up, i will be successful with my job and school for the sole purpose of having bread to give to a future family.
you know when i daydream all over traffic (well, not daydreaming about traffic itself), but daydreaming through it. imagine this, you come home from work, all pissed off and angry from the moron who cut you off the freeway, and the boss who doesn't seem to understand, you sit down in your favorite "grandpa" chair, kick back and try to sort things out.
your youngest daughter jumps on you, happy to see you, and even when she was right in your ears hugging you, announces at the top of her voice to the rest of the family that "dad's home!!!"
even with the painful little girl scream, don't you find that relaxing? i mean i don't have a daughter, but would like to see my future family very pleased and content with the life they are provided. if in any case my wife would want not to work, and look out for the kids at home instead, sure, no problem at all, i'll even ask her if she wants me to get her a membership in netflix.
too perfect for reality? i think not, i did not mention the youngest daughter would be the spoiled brat. the house have a problem with the plumbing. this is not hollywood. as the repairman of the house, i will have to try fixing the plumbing, assign chores to the kids (i'll even send them to cooking class on top of music lessons). too dreamy? here's more that I am expecting in a family that i may have, they would much rather go to lola than stay at home (hey, what their parents are, are what they are).
and oh, aside from the constant chatter about what stresses me out and the fact that i could become a book whore... er... i mean book worm, writing this entire thing actually helps me deal with my own issues that i am dealing right now at this very moment.
i kept telling myself that i have to straighten up.
it means now, but i put it aside.
it means my future, but i keep putting it in the future.
i want a house.
she wants separated rooms.
lol.
i want.
you know you need to do the laundry NOW when...
1. you know side b is starting to brown on your underwear.
2. your cleanest socks are actually in the bottom end of your laundry basket... the pair of socks you wore two months ago.
3. your pants are starting to give a stench when you wake up in the morning (actually, it smells the entire day, your nose just adjusts to it.)
4. you're wearing colored shirts as an undershirt, because you ran out of black shirt, grey shirt, and white shirts (ohh that ran out months ago).
5. you cannot destinguish your black pants from your grey pants.
6. somebody says that "you have a nice brown shirt! is that like the 30s white shirt effect?" then you answer back, no actually, this is just a white shirt i got from dancing with the stars memorabilia.
7. fly's are your followers.
8. you're friends get more drunk much faster than they usually did... probably due to the perfume you have.
9. you don't need no ice hair cement nor gatsby nor some hair aerosol to hold your hair.
10. nobody cares if you sleeps in the side walk.
A mother is driving a little girl to her friend's house for a play date.
"Mommy," the little girl asks, "how old are you?"
"Honey, you are not supposed to ask a lady her age," the mother replied. "It's not polite."
"OK", the little girl says, "How much do you weigh?"
"Now really," the mother says, "those are personal questions and are really none of your business."
Undaunted, the little girl asks, "Why did you and Daddy get a divorce?"
"That is enough questions, young lady, honestly!"
The exasperated mother walks away as the two friends begin to play.
"My Mom won't tell me anything about her," the little girl says to her friend.
"Well," says the friend, "all you need to do is look at her drivers' license It is like a report card, it has everything on it."
Later that night the little girl says to her mother, "I know how old you are, you are 32."
The mother is surprised and asks, "How did you find that out?
"I also know that you weigh 140 pounds."
The mother is past surprised and shocked now. "How in heaven's name did you find that out?"
"And," the little girl says triumphantly, "I know why you and daddy got a divorce."
"Oh really?" the mother asks. "Why?"
"Because you got an F in sex.."
I've lived a thousand lifetimes to find a soul like yours. A soul so pure, a soul so brave. An angel that takes my breath away. I want to lie with you forever my passion knows no bounds. I want to shield you from all evil, protect this love we've found. Love me with your spirit, promise we'll never part; We are not the same as others. We are forever lovers
-sherry, from the crow
"then and now"
- yes folks, the person wearing black on the left and on the right is one and the same... and a lot more extra pounds.
(photo on the left is dated between august 18-26 2001 with my family, the photo on the right is dated july 16, 2005 with my twittwit)
