19:41 |
earlier i asked some ppl what's wrong with this sentence:
i can thought you.
everyone laughed, and told me it didn't made sense at all.
angel, however, said, BASTOS ka ron. lol. she got the point. ahahah
19:38 |
sometimes it makes me wonder if i'm annoying to a certain level. sometimes i feel as if i'm not wanted by people. and sometimes i don't know if i'm readily accepted by everyone. sometimes i feel as if i'm being a hypocrite on my part that i couldn't decipher all the words that comes out of my mouth. will i ever make the best out of myself? or will imake myself unworth of anything.
will i ever dig myself out of this misery?
how will i cope up with my life again? why do sometimes i don't feel like i am being myself?
why am i blaming myself all over again and again and again...
life sux...
carpe diem.
funny poem for tep 2/4/04 19:16 |
roses are red...
violets are blue...
the thought of tep makes my balls go blue
bwaahhaha. i copied this somewhere...
it appears to mean that it means the sight of tep i'm helpless... hahahaha. it sounds bastos, but it's not. =P
blahhhhhh... 19:07 |
ø the angels are weak ø
ø heaven is falling ø
ø hell is rising ø
ø pain is residing ø
ø anger has rejuvenated ø
ø why do i care? all i care is that i'm in love with tep ø
19:06 |
something i wrote on a piece of paper while i was in the meeting at the office earlier:
I never knew how much in trouble I am until I tried to look at myself through another person. I know it's bothering the shit out of my nuts, but I will have to deal with this as soon as possible. All things must come to an end they say, not until you make the most out of it and prolong it.
19:03 |
life itself is a stage where we set our own ideas and make them real... making people see what we can do and show them everything...
maybe pain is a part of our stage, and so is love, happiness, and just being an ass. it's all a part of the stages of ur lives (no, the life stages worm of the irc).
blabble... 2/3/04 12:37 |
A lot of times, when things get rough...
I wonder, is there anything for me?
A lot of times, when confusion creates a realm for me...
I wonder, what is there to lose?
A lot of times, when anger takes the best out of me...
I wonder, have I been the best that I can be?
Does time hold still for a second, and let reality consume everyone?
Do I have any ideals at all? Or am I just living with different beliefs?
Do I have a rock solid belief that I can adhere to?
What am I getting myself into?
How do I really feel about who I am right now?
I am comfortable, but yet I am becoming alienated with my family.
I am wise, but yet I looked stupid with everyone.
I am old, but to the eyes of my parents, I am still a teenager.
What do I have to do for them to realize that I am no longer a child?
Do I have to run away and live on my own?
Do I have to live by myself and conquer the world without anything to back me up?
I pray that I would be armed with enough strength to roam about the world.
Even though I feel so strong, there are times that I feel nothing but weakness.
If I have to do something... I must do it now.
But what do I have to do?
Aint nothing for me but gotten stuck on a rut.
I can't concentrate... but I don't have much of a distraction.
I look up at myself in every little way... but I saw myself so low that a negative zero is not enough to describe it.
2/2/04 18:06 |
well... aside from the fact that i wanted to take a break for myself, i was thinking maybe i should spend some of that time towards a goal.... several to be exact.
i still owe some people... tsk tsk tsk.
i owe janine the code for the drop down menus...
i owe #homecourt their homepage
i owe #igsp the homepage
and i owe my own homepage a facelift.
18:00 |
yup yup. i'm migrating my blog. watch for version 12. if u ask where's version 11... don't bother, i dumped that concept and will be doing the new one.
was thinking... 17:45 |
slowly i'm trying to break free from my chains by looking at it at a different way. a way that i've never done before... looking at it on the outside. i'm slowly doing this by doing a hiatus on things i like. at least for a week that is.
yeah, i'm tired. i think i'm getting bored at my monotonous daily habit and the only that's keeping me together is that girl i met a year ago. i mean almost a year ago--teptep.
yeah, time to look on towards my more present future... or the nearer future. perhaps i need to become more aggressive in whatever i have in mind.
yup, the next few weeks are right in the books, i've planned all of em. whatever happens, i made myself flexible on it.