fuck.

not again.

ouch.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

update:

i changed some stuff on my navigation link to make it cleaner looking. yeah i haven't uploaded the html file for the links but i will before i call it a day.

other updates:
    [+] photos:
         [-] added the "~ tep ~" section
         [-] added "rombert" by tep to ~ me ~ section
         [-] added "silverwood lake sra" by tep to ~ tep and me ~ section
         [-] added "untitled" by moi to ~ tep ~ section
         [-] added "unaware" by moi to ~ tep ~ section
    [+] navigation menu:
         [-] the whole thing is changed. the rest of the menus will be updated later
           - home changed to sanctity
           - about changed to self
           - write ups changed to opinions (since
             it is, after all, opinions)
           - guestbook changed to screams
           - photos changed to media
         [-] added link to the angelicfall
         [-] added link to the darkheretic/vehement soul
    [+] links:
         [-] added the links html link on the nav menu

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

i'm completely blanked out, nothing is more stressing than problems that stacked up.

i guess a second job is my only option.

i HAVE to work after tennis classes on saturday, and i will have to sacrifice my rest day sunday for work too.

i feel so fucking old.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

my body is already starting to crumble. i am trying hard to pace myself to keep up with all these problems. i am stressing out, no doubt about it. these past few months, i felt that i am dumb. a moron who doesn't know anything. a bobo. bugók. i can't even write a decent paper anymore. the last paper i wrote contained a lot of redundant ideas, I don't fucking know. so far my self esteem doesn't feel so good anymore.

fuck.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

how bad are you really?

Directions: Ask yourself the following questions. For every "Yes" give yourself 2 points then add up your points at the end to find out how bad you really are. It's that easy.. Then put your score in the subject and pass it on. If you don't change it to your score it will mess the game up, because no one will know your score, so change it! This means the number in the subject box is the score of the person who sent it to you..

QUESTIONS:

1. Have you ever smoked?
2. Been drunk as hell?
3. Screwed someone of the opposite sex?
4. Screwed someone of the same sex?
5. Shoplifted?
6. Lied?
7. Betrayed a friend?
8. Been to jail?
9. Smoked weed?
10. Done LSD?
11. Done any other illegal drug?
12. Given oral sex?
13. Received oral sex?
14. Screwed something not of human race?
15. Screwed something not alive?
16. Cheated on someone?
17. Used someone?
18. Paid someone for sex?
19. Been paid for sex?
20. Played strip poker?
21. Skipped school?
22. Skipped school to get high/drunk?
23. Danced naked?
24. Danced naked in public?
25. Flashed someone?
26. Mooned someone?
27. Kissed someone?
28. Kissed someone of the same sex?
29. Held hands?
30. Hugged someone?
31. French kissed?
32. Had sexual fantasies?
33. Had gay/lesbian fantasies?
34. Stolen money?
35. Stole money from family?
36. Stolen drugs from family?
37. Been convicted of a crime?
38. Dated someone because you heard they were easy?
39. Had someone date you because they thought you were easy?
40. Been called a whore?
41. Been called a bitch?
42. Watched porn?
43. Taped porn?
44. Watched porn you taped?
45. Kissed someone while moving in a vehicle?
46. Screwed someone while moving in a vehicle?
47. Used sex toys?
48. Tried to kill yourself?
49. Tried to kill someone else?
50. Told someone you hated them?
51. Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?

Send this 2 all of your friends and back to the person who sent it to you. The highest possible score is 102. It's that easy. Then put your score in the subject and pass it on. If you don't change it to your score it will mess the game up, because no one will know your score, so change it.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

for the first time in four weeks...

i don't have anything to do with work.

that's great! i needed to kick back once in awhile now. but i'm hella bored. oh well.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

sweet, can't u see i'm excited?
my thoughts are already twisted,
oh baby you know that my mind is busted,
freak with me baby girl,
as our surroundings come into blur.
let's free our minds,
from all these endless binds,
let's be happy tonight,
you will always on my sight, baby.
luv u my big baby girl

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

That's Three Levels To you!

Mass Appeal
904 S Figueroa St
Los Angeles, CA
90015-1303 US

just trying this club out, 1000 capacity.

damn. that's huge!

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

heed. heed my soul. as i am stuck in this predicament. take me away. take me away far. take me with you. take me out. i miss you.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

i just realized that i smoked... a lot yesterday.

considering that i opened a new pack about 10AM yesterday... and finished it off by 9PM last night.

i'm estimating about 30 sticks for yesterday. a lot more than i usually smoke.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

i miss thou.

=(

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

chili and cheese chippy and philadelphia soft cheese served with fork.

~the bomb!

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: how old are you by the way?
ronskee: =) i hope so too
ronskee: take a wild guess =D heehee
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hahahhaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: lagi
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hmmm......27???????
ronskee: 27? =)
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: ok
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: 30 then?
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hehehehee
ronskee: younger
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hmmmm
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: 28?
ronskee: younger pa
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: 25?
ronskee: bwahahaha
ronskee: younger
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: dont tell me younger pa
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: ngek
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: 21?
ronskee: bingo!
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: taka lang ay
ronskee: do i look older ba? bwahahahah
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: feel mo lang yan
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hahahahhaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: binuang
ronskee: i am 21. =)
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: dont tell me ka same age ra ta
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: you look older man
ronskee: bwahaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hahahahaa
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: bwahahahahhahaa
ronskee: i am 21!!!!!!!!!
ronskee: grabe sad, dili gatuo ai. hahaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: sumbong tika teptep
ronskee: sumbong kaw
ronskee: hahaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: you look old in the pics bai
ronskee: mo ba? hahahaha
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: sugot sya ana
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hehehehehhe
ronskee: i know i look older =)
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: sheessshh u just touched my funny bones man
-+=|o0o0o0o|=+-: hahahhahaa
-- from my log files

it seems that i would be adding another person on my list of people who have far off estimate on my age. the other one is karnik, my ex coworker in west hollywood, he thought that i was 12 (i was actually 17). now the question is: did I aged that much in my four years of stay here? people used to make too young estimate before. now, they make mistakes by making me feel a lot older.

~and then again. really?

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

finally, midterms is about done. but papers are not. shit.

earlier:

i was fumbling for some quarters on my pocket when i heard king, saying something. i thought he wasn't talking to me, so i went on with my business.

after five minutes of looking, i looked at the lunchroom table. i asked when i noticed that he wasn't holding his phone: "who were you talking to?"

"you" was his answer.

me: "really? sorry i'm not really paying attention. what did you say?"

king: "(LOUD laugh) i was saying that i put in a dollar there, you can have the fifty cents. you are getting a soda right?"

me: "yeah"

king: "go ahead, take it."

me: "sorry man, i'm just thinking about a lot of things lately and i didn't noticed you were talking to me."

king: "you in school?"

me: "yeah"

king: "midterms?"

me: "sorta"

king: Laughing Loud again "how many?"

me: (pause) "uhh three"

king: laughing hard "you're out of it man! hahaha take it easy!"

shit. i must be like this the past few days.

pak syet.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...once again i am immersed in the bitter relationship of boredom and learning. knowledge does have its own power, but the painful time it takes to learn is excruciating. ~

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

last tuesday, i saw philip hanging out by the lrc (learning resource lab). he was telling me about the red hot chili peppers and how he doesn't have any hook ups on it. he was also telling me that the cure (or something) backstage pass he was trying to give to me three weeks ago was already gone.

as we were talking about the concerts, two of our lady friends passed by. i told these girls, "hey! me and my girl are going clubbing this friday, you guys wanna go?"

"we don't know yet, we'll let you know"

as they left, philip told me, "tol... wala sa dugo natin ang clubbing! rockers tayo eh!"

i answered back, "so? eh ano ngayon kung rockers tayo? having fun lang naman yan eh!"

philip: "oh yeah? nuon pumunta ako sa club, nakaupo lang ako sa gilid nanunuod, eh nde naman talaga tayo pang club eh"

moi: "bat nakaupo ka lang sa gilid? tange! mabobored ka lang kung ganun gagawin mo."

philip: "uuyy ron, baka mareto mo ko sa mga kaibigan ng gf mo..."

me: "uhhh d ko alam tol eh, d ko masyadong kilala mga kaibigan nya"

philip: "cge na tol oh!"

me: "ah teka, baka mareto ka ng pinsan ko!"

philip: "ooo cge! mabait ba yang pinsan mo?"

me: "tangina mo! nde kita irereto sa pinsan ko, tarantado ka rin ano?"

philip: "babae pala pinsan mo?"

i started laughed. "yeah, she is."

philip: "hook up mo ko tol ha?"

me: "tutulungan kita, pero nde sa pinsan ko ha?"

philip: "sama ako sa clubbing nyo"

me: "oo ba! walang problema... (long pause) teka teka... kala ko ba ayaw mo ng clubbing?!?"

philip: "sinabi ko lang un"

me: "gago"

philip: "me class ka pa? ano oras?"

me: "exam ko ngayon"

philip: "tange! magaral ka nga"

me: "tangina mo! d na nga ako natulog halos eh, relax muna ng konti"

philip: "o sha, pasok na ako, 7pa class mo diba?"

me: "oo, anong oras ba class mo?"

philip: "6"

me: "o cge, maghahanap nalang muna ako ng matambayan, para makayosi ako habang nagbabasa"

philip: "ingats tol! basta pag may backstage pass ako, bigay ko sa inyo"

me: "aight!"

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

*ouch*

*fuck*

i'm having that attack again.

*ouch*

aaaaaarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

it hurts.

my throat hurts.

my heart.

my lungs.

fuck.

syet.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

sleep...

sleep well my love...

don't worry about me...

i'll soon follow...

behold the sandman...

who will take me in the sands of time...

towards the world of unreality...

fantasies and dreams...

goodnight.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

i woke up really late today, I guess I was too tired to be able to wake up at 5:30 in the morning. i looked at the watch 6:20AM. i was so annoyed since i want to see tep before i go to work. i skipped taking a shower before leaving, i washed my face, brushed my teeth and left for the station.

it was our usual morning, a little talk while smoking until the train arrives. i was ragged up. it was the first time i went there wearing shorts and sandals, and believe me, it was helluva cold.

the train got there on time, as opposed to the posting that the train would be as much as fifteen minutes late. she left with the train, as i headed back home to take my shower.

i took a shower and did my morning routine. although it was a little late than usual, i rushed so i could leave early. i got in the office on time, but was still pissed 'cause i didn't had the time to study.

i took my lunch break, ate as fast as i can (ten mins tops), then headed out somewhere to study. i went back on time.

tep called on the cellphone, she said she's been holding on the office phone for a long time. berna, the receptionist wasn't able to transfer her call to me.

later on in the afternoon, my boss approached me and asked if i could drop him off to his house. i told myself that i needed air, so i agreed. i dropped him off to his place, from there we convoyed towards work. damn, anaheim hills is one rich community.

i got on the office a bit ahead of him. he parked next to my truck, as i was about to get into the office, he told me, what the hell is that? i looked back, and saw oil dripping from his truck's engine.

he told me, can u tell [other boss name--his wife] that i'll just run to jiffy lube really quick, i'll have them check the oil leaks. so i, the employee, went to the other boss and told her, "[her name]? sabi po ni [his name], pupunta daw muna sha sa jiffy lube, may tumutulo kasing oil sa truck nya."

she bombed out. obviously extremely pissed off.

she said, "i wanna go home karl!"

i was just silent, not really knowing what to tell her.

she then said, "you know what karl? he should have married that hummer, not me!"

i was going to laugh, but i tried to suppress it and told her "he didn't brought the hummer, he brought the truck."

she answered: "ah ok, yung avalon dala nya?"

"opo" was my short answer, then i headed back to my desk. i was laughing so hard and yet tried to be silent with it. my stomach got hurt.

i left the office at around 5:30PM. i went straight to school since it was traffic, i ate my lunch--fried chicken and rice--while driving.

i got to school at around 6:15PM, and i thought that i should get to studying. i studied while killing time and while smoking. at around 6:30PM i was already on the classroom. i was bored. the classroom was buzzing with very faint whispers.

i decided to sleep. i woke up at around 6:55PM several minutes before the prof arrived.

the exam started at around 7:30PM. i took the test and around 7:45PM i was already done. i noticed nobody was standing up, not really wanting to go first, i waited for another person that will have the guts to pass the paper.

at around 8:00, somebody did. damn i need to pee really bad. he passed his paper, and i passed mine. i left and headed to the restroom.

i called tep, no answer. she called back after ten mins, and asked me how the exam went. i told her, "i don't know yet, i just woke up."

she panicked and asked "WHAT?!?"

i said: "i fell asleep in my truck, and i just woke up."

she said, "where are you now?"

i said: "halfway to the classroom" (i am halfway to the parking lot at this time)

she said, "run! run! you might miss your exam if you don't!"

i started to laugh, and told her "humana swit! mwahhh"

she said, "yawaaa kaaaa!!!! tuokon teka dinha karon!" (You're a Devil!!! watch it! or i'll choke you!!"

i said, "ayaw, kai sakit na." (don't do that! that'll hurt) and we started laughing.

we bade our goodbyes as we agreed to meet up at a restaurant.

we ate with her friends from bld, and it was just a good way of relaxing.

we went to a city in orange county, so she could meet up with her gay friend leo. sometimes when i'm around other ateneans, i felt as if i am not an atenean. oh well, i guess it's because i'm a highschooler atenean.

we went back and at around 11 we were at her place.

my lss:
whoa-oohhhhh...
amber is the color of your energy....
whoa-oohhhhh...

i got home close to about ten minutes ago.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...i adore thee and seal this love in the everlasting covenant of the heavens.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

i abuse you
i use you
i control you
only i can take care of you
but i must push on
take you to the limit
until you give up on me

for my body

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...walking.... waiting... alone without a care... if you think it's cool to walk right up and take my life and fuck it up... well did you... well did you...

from the queen of the damned

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I was doing my usual work, when a loud crash and a scream was heard from our storage room. I ran towards it, and found out Steve lying on the floor. As i was about to come close, he stood up. He was OK.

Minerva, who screamed, wasn't. She was in a state of shock. We spent more time trying to make her relax than with Steve. He had a broken nose and he said he was perfectly fine. We gave water to Minerva, with Patricia patting her back, telling her to relax.

Poor Minerva.

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you know it's not your day when...

...your ring falls down the toilet.
...your hair is flying away.
...your zip is open.
...your ankles and knees are hurting.
...your back hurts.
...your eyes hurt.
...your blanked out when trying to work.
...you have a huge stack of work.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

up to now, i'm still trying to finish my 100 things to do before i die list. the list is more like a domino effect, about half of the list are dependent on other entries.

...and no, i will NOT publish this. haha =P

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I checked my Apache access logs, and I saw numerous suspectable accesses. One was trying to access my cmd.exe program . Another one was trying to access a PORN page in my SERVER.

I gotta arm my PC first before I restart my Apache.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

kappa ngyawa! yateeeehhh nga playerrrrr!!!! senti ang gaiplay. gatuyuon man letse!
(fuck shit motherfucker! little diabolic player!! It's playing senti it's playing it on purpose dumb shit!)
(putanginang shit! mashoray na player!!!! senti ang pinaparinig! nananadyang ang bwakang ina!)

to readers who cannot understand visaya nor tagalog, the translations ARE NOT, i repeat ARE NOT in it's exact sense.

This is the better translation (but doesn't sound as good.)
kappa ngyawa! yateeeehhh nga playerrrrr!!!! senti ang gaiplay. gatuyuon man letse!
(fuck satan! little demon player!! It's playing senti its doing it on purpose!)
(kantot devil! maliit na satanas tong player na to!!!! senti ang pinaparinig! nananadya!)




...i hate this class for tom.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

Tracy Chapman
Done so many things wrong I don't know if I can do right
Oh I Oh I've
Done so many things wrong I don't know if I can do right
At this point in my life
I've done so many things wrong I don't know if I can do right
If you put your trust in me I hope I won't let you down
If you give me a chance I'll try
You see it's been a hard road the road I'm traveling on
And if I take your hand I might lead you down the path to ruin
I've had a hard life I'm just saying it so you'll understand
That right now, right now, I'm doing the best I can

At this point in my life
At this point in my life
Although I've mostly walked in the shadows
I'm still searching for the light
Won't you put your faith in me
We both know that's what matters
If you give me a chance I'll try
You see I've been climbing stairs but mostly stumbling down
I've been reaching high always losing ground
You see I've been reaching high but always losing ground
You see I've conquered hills but I still have mountains to climb
And right now right now I'm doing the best I can
At this point in my life

Before we take a step
Before we walk down that path
Before I make any promises
Before you have regrets
Before we talk commitment
Let me tell you of my past
All I've seen and all I've done
The things I'd like to forget

At this point in my life
At this point in my life
I'd like to live as if only love mattered
As if redemption was in sight
As if the search to live honestly
Is all that anyone needs
No matter if you find it

You see when I've touched the sky
The earth's gravity has pulled me down
But now I've reconciled that in this world
Birds and angels get the wings to fly
If you can believe in this heart of mine
If you can give it a try
Then I'll reach inside and find and give you
All the sweetness that I have
At this point in my life
At this point in my life

"bye swit, goodnight"

"bye swit! ingat sa pagdrive"

"i will" turning the volume up.

the stereo played this song... weird...

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...thoughts of death looms beneath my head. as i slowly destroy my own existence from this world. education ruined me.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...the day slowly vanishes under the realm of darkness. as i slowly submit myself to the eternal submission to the angels of death.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...and i continue to seek a solemn place to hide, in this bitter world of hell. a world we created under the midst of civilization. i'm slowly falling away from myself. until this hatred subsides in my own emotional turmoil. i fought against the hell i created within my very heart, but slowly my will to fight is slowly diminishing under the faint light of hope.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

Of all the things I hate. It took me weeks until I'm completely sure that I saved everything needed to be saved before I completely destroy the partition.

I just realized that FUCK!

I miss ONE SINGLE FILE THAT CONTAINS all my emails since 2001. my outlook.pst Now that 600MB file is long gone. 1500 emails from people are all gone. All important communications are gone... Sure I don't open my outlook every minute like my Yahoo email, but I save archive ALL my emails there once or twice a week. Photos are gone. Documents are gone. Address book is gone. Almost everything is gone, it'll take me years to rebuild what I've built in the information database i created in outlook. FUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Fuck, it felt as if a HUGE thing was taken from me. it's the same feeling I had when my first PC's harddrive died on me (worth four years of my personal work for our press in the Phils). ouch. ouch. ouch. ouch.



I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!

ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I feel so fucking pathetic. I feel like an idiot. A moron without a brain. AARRRGGGHHHH.

I have a backup of my outlook.pst, however it's dated december 2001. waaaaaaaa

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

...and the day continues.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I'm bored...

blah blah blah blaahhhh blah blah blah blah lala tralalal walala wararara tararantantantan

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I asked Norma earlier. I asked: "Ey Norms, Why did you raised your eyebrow when you saw the picture of Me and Tootsie?"

Her answer was: "Alang! Abi nakog lahi nga bayi imong kauban sa picture! Balo na baya ka nga halap halap na akong mata" (Of course! I thought you are with a different girl! You do know that I have a not so good eyesight."

I laughed and told her: "Auuggghhh!!! Kabaga pod nako magdisplay og picture sa lahing tawo" ("Ugh! I'll be too dumb to display a photo of me and another girl. that's so fat faced." I don't know the English Equivalent. lol bwahah) then I pinched her arm.

She looked closer at the picture and said, "Oh yeah huh!" Then slaps my shoulder while laughing.

No wonder...

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I just noticed. I don't have any entries HERE for June. wow. hmmm lemme dig up some stuff on my PC! ;)

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

quote: "Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by it slef but the wrod as a wlohe."

from tep and tep's cousin edge

Edge's LINKs:
grayscale
ej

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I passed by Tep's yesterday before I went to class. As I was about to leave their house, I jokingly asked Tep for a quarter so I could buy a Scantron. I laughed and told her that I was only kidding.

I left and headed for school.

When I arrived at the school, I opened my wallet to get my $1 bill. I looked for it and found out that I don't hava a $1 bill. I was so pissed off since it was the only cash I have. I didn't even know what happened to it.

I looked at the time (6:45PM), fuck, it was impossible for me to go to the bookstore to buy scantrons (the only place where I could buy those using my atm card that are close enough). If I withdraw money, I'll be charged $2 by the school for the transaction.

I flipped my car upside down and inside out, hoping to find some coins of some sort. After half an hour (at 7:15PM) of checking the floors, pockets and compartments of my truck, I manage to pool exactly 34¢.

I ran towards the class and passed by the Elbow Room (School Sari² Store) and bought a scantron. The scantron was 30¢. I hurriedly ran up the stairs and into the classroom. I was praying that the exam didn't start yet.

I was looking inside the classroom, I noticed that not one of them have ANY scantron on their desks. It appears that they were taking down notes, not scared in any way that you would notice on people.

I stepped inside the classroom. And just went straight to an arm chair. I settled down, and I was wondering what happened to the exam.

I thought, maybe it was just a review session and the exam will start later on. I copied notes and just went on.

At around 8:30PM, the prof announced a break for us. Still dumbfounded, I took my break and took a cigarette break.

When we came back, she started taking roll, and announced to the class what we need for the exam. I thought, shit, the exam was pusponed?

I felt soooo pissed off, especially that I spend all my free time studying for this class. I arrived at the office at around 7:05AM and studied until 8:30AM, I took my lunch, ate for only 15 mins and studied the rest of the hour. I left and spent about 30 mins before class reading something before Tep arrives.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

It's the same old boring shit I'm into. I'm praying that I could NOW get out of this fucking class.

Posted by Ron AngelicFall | |

I just added and consolidated my blog entries from other blogs. Hope you enjoy them.

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It was kinda weird last night. I came about 2 mins after everybody came in the class.

"Ronald! There you are!" my professor exclaimed.

I answered back by saying good evening, and it came to my mind that it's about time she remembered me from the other psych class three sems back.

I sat down and started to get comfy.

She showed some slides and cited some examples, I took notes as usual. She was giving an example regarding correlational studies, she goes, "for example, what if I, blah blah blah... to Ron?" and at the same time pointed at me.

It was kinda awkward, but sure, that's ok.

Later on, she asked everybody if we were done copying the slide, some gave her a signal that they are not yet finished including me.

She said, "you and your little paper Ron? haha"

WTF? hahaa lolz. it was weird and fun at the same time. lol

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OK.

Yeah, I'm slowly consolidating my old blogs to this blog. I'm putting them to one.

So far I'm done adding February 2002 here. Check it out.

Just a piece of info, nothing is edited out, I just added the old entries here. One month down, 15 months and two blogs to go. If you find something offensive, that post WAS me. gets?

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july 25, 26 and 27

it was just a usual weekend, tep and i hanged out, ate dinner and went home. we came home early, for we still have plans earlier for the next day.

on saturday the twenty sixth, i searched the web for a job i could stomach. i drove around our area for a possible employer. it was a search in vain, but oh well, i'm not in need of a job anyway.

i called her up around 5pm and told her that i can pick her up anytime. she said i could pick her up that time. i went to their house and picked her up, as i carried her bag towards the truck.

i was notified earlier by my mom that there would be a small party and inuman at my uncle's place in paramount. we went there, ate and just left.

i told her that i haven't prepared for anything, so we drop by the house and i picked up some clothes. i thought my kuya joey was going with us, but he told me that they can't, they have to take care of basti.

we decided to go after i completely packed up. i started the truck's engine and rev it, as she sat down and positioned herself in the passenger seat.

for the next 20 mins we headed for the marriott in anaheim (by disney). when we did got there, it took us an additional 15 mins to look for a parking alone.

we went to the hotel room, where my sister rosalynne, her boyfriend skeelo, my cousins berna, jeanelle and leo waited. i left the room and tried to look for the gift shop, i asked a certain person, who turned out to be somebody not working there (he has a name tag, a coat... you know, somebody who works for a hotel looks like?), i was so embarrassed by that, but he was nice anyway and told me to ask the girl in the counter.

eventually, i found the gift shop, after asking several people. i bought some cigarettes, deodorant and lotion at the gift shop and proceeded to return to the hotel room. arriving at the hotel room, i changed to my swimming attire right away, and no I don't wear speedos (it's been 7/8 years since the last time i did haha). i waded through the shallow water (the deepest was 4 feet), and got myself wet.

tep and i started to tease each other, she told me we'll race. we raced and lapped the pool several times until we gave up. after about 15 mins we started to race again. after ten or twelve laps, i miscalculated and slipped my hand on the wall. as i lose control, my head starts to dive right into the wall.

i had a huge lump on my head.

i found out that berna and rosalynne let to get some alcohol.

i tried to rest for awhile and smoke. as the pain in my head slowly subsided.

everyone went back to the hotel room and took turns on taking the shower. after everyone finished dressing up, rosalynne and berna came back with the booze.

they bought, tequila, hot sex, margarita mix and bud. we started drinking as we play a game of cards called chikicha (?). slowly everyone started to get pretty messed up as jon joined us and brought with him some johnny walker (?).

everyone got messed up as 4 people shared a 2 person bed. while the two younger ones took the big bed for themselves. everyone fell asleep.

the morning slowly woke us up. everyone started to head for the pool again, as we took turns taking photos of anything. rosalynne and skeelo decided to buy lunch.

i took photos of berna and tep as they swam. i smoked and continued taking photos of anything. after awhile, we went back to the hotel room after everyone got tired.

berna's parents and some aunties came by the hotel room and brought with them lunch. as rosalynne and skelo came back with more lunch.

we ate lunch then prepared to leave that sunday. we packed up and left the hotel.

we didn't want to go home so we drove around a bit. before darkness fell, we dropped by her house to drop off her stuff and for her to freshen up before i dropped her off to the church with her parents.

~end

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weeeeeeeeee

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I've added several key elements of blogging. (as if!)
- Title has been activated
- I'm on beta for dual blogging
- changes in the Haloscan comments template

so far so good, that's it.

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Ferrari Enzo


Ferrari 360 Modena


Lamborghini Murcielago

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I'm experimenting on dual blog on a single page. If ONLY the banners are at the bottom. gosh.

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ipsuc ko yaken.

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i'm a loser baby, why don't you kill me?

misguided vulgar insanity

i am insane for i seek perfection. i am wise for i seek wisdom. i am weak 'cause i feel weak. i am lost, but will forever be lost in this mountainous psychological and mental torture that i receive everyday.

never again will i feel that perfection i felt not too long ago. when will i ever grow up to become one of the most pathetic losers in the face of the planet?

am i a loser?

maybe. i've looked down on myself too much that i am slowly giving in to my own failure. i felt that the need for me to arise is slowly creeping in. may the world treat someone like me the way i am treating this world. i am on the virge of insanity as i speak through everything on my mind.

everyday i welcome myself to the warm apathetic life that i live. there will never come a time where i would say: "i used to do that," thing. especially that i keep blowing up my chances of self well being.

i wanted to live a simple life.

a simple life... a life that means something like, no bathing, no shower, no toothbrush, draggin along the coast, snowboarding without a care. i'm just kidding! a simple life. a simple family. any complicated matter must be done efficiently and rapidly.

Rabid Obsession and Neurosis to S, Kind, Intelligent and Everything

Singing without Treshold, Endlessly Provoking, High Above the Nebulas, Into Everything.

i know it's stupid. blah blah whatever.

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