3/22/02 14:48 |
I didn't know how long two hours could be. I didn't know until yesterday, it's been the longest one and a half hours of my life. It had basically strained not only my jaws, but my mind and body too. The dentist didn't seem to mind
3/18/02 19:06 |
Time to kick back and relax. I don't feel like posting anything in those forums. Well, maybe a couple! My mom just talked to me, don't go too much to porn sites. I rarely do! :angel: buwahahahaha It completely cracked me up.
Anyway, the psychology draft has been done and I should be halfway by next week. Thank God I don't have to write those stupid Introduction part, the tables, methods nor the results.
It's just a plain boring research paper.
13:13 |
AAARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!
It's been a painful 3 hours and all I could come up is ONE PAGE??
I hate doing this, ever since I started writing something for myself, my mind stopped functioning properly over writing something for my grades.
It's already 1 AM and I still have to email my own work to a fellow student. Since we have the same topic, she wants to peek at what I've written.
Good thing it's just a draft day tomorrow. I hope I could come up with at least 4 pages by tomorrow. (1 front page, 1.5 page Introduction, .5 page abstract, and 1 reference)...
that way I will only need to come up with 4 more pages... :eek:
3/6/02 14:34 |
The way my mind works is completely different from what I used to be. I could no longer tolerate the evilness of myself. The way my thoughts appear to be is so much hallucinated than what it used to be.
I am Ron. A person borne unto this world without anything much to present. This is what I can truly say, I am but a human being. Incapable of presenting myself to be more worthy than what I am now.
Twenty years since the first time I appeared in this world. I could never show my true self, or perhaps I'm just afraid. Fear of being mocked and being rejected. What do I have to lose? Everything, everything I do affects me in a lot of ways.
~ end : for now ~
3/4/02 21:58 |
It is so fortunate that I saw the light of today
Sleeplessness gave its toil upon the body I held dear
I am just full of questions as I in the dark voids lay
Crackling and rippling noise passes through my ear
I looked up at the sky
And saw the light and sigh
It should be better than I
The speech that's coming out of my mouth is obstructed
In the thoughts of my mind that's almost destructed
The theories and equations is completely scrambled
Everything in this world is just getting old.
Maybe I am just a zombie awaiting
From a living body to arise from sleeping
Maybe I am just a vampire of the night
Waiting for a fresh victim of delight
A small set of phrase from my own thoughts.. 02:18 |
Look at the midse of hell!
A child arises from the depths
Willing to change the world unto our own faults
Another child yet arises,
From the Kingdom of the Heavens
Willing to defend our goodness against the onslaught of hell
Thine hast cast it's spell on the everglades of the world
Thee shan't pester upon thy people
Chant the ever lasting songs of the deepest love
Where is hell?
Hell is just created within our minds
Heavens is where we already live
But our minds are dirty and polluted
We make our own hell
A child born unto this world Is not complete
It is just half of a complete soul.
It is not a quest to look for the other half.
You and your half is destined to be together
Even in the midse of deep hatred beneath ourselves